We
are all capable of being angelic. Not because it's possible
to achieve perfection on earth, but because we
are not thwarted by its impossibilities.' -Tricotomas
Looking
back in the last few years, it is astounding if not contemptible how
quickly and completely I destroyed my life as well as negatively
impacting others. I watched myself systematically forfeit common
sense for a moment of bliss and diversion. Reality had become an
enemy that I avoided at all cost. It is only as of late that I have
been able to recognize a familiar pattern of destruction. It is clear
now that my coping mechanism was dysfunctional. I would surfed upon
the top and bottom of the emotional wave, seldom permitting myself to
level off in a moment of serenity. I had little self-control and even
less rational thoughts.
My emotional pendulum swung wildly and
without temperance. Quick fixes, immediate gratification, and
outright avoidance had become my method of operation. I did not
realize at the time that I had little self-esteem with no courage to
fight. I knew however that my actions were consequential and that my
future was in peril.
Why
did I continuously sabotage myself with poor judgement and action,
regardless of the negative outcome that would inevitably follow?
On
the surface I had everything; a wife, children, a house, a car, and
two cats. However internally I knew that a battle raged. I was
hurting but I had no desire to commit to an introspective. My
materialistic world was not enough to appease my pain. I needed fast
living pleasures and I would painstakingly protect these quick fixes.
Unfortunately this type of pleasures would die-off as quickly as I
experienced them. The emotional roller coaster ride brought an array
of pain and consequences. But that was okay because I could sequester
the 'quick fix spirit' to suppress the new chaos that I had just
whipped up. This endless cycle bred deception, avoidance and then
settled as a welcome friend. But I soon understood that this was one
roller coaster ride that my inner-circle of friends would not endure.
With no friends and no sense of belonging, I crashed. Today I realize
that many are trapped in this 'cycle of hell' and sadly some are not
even aware of it.
From
extra-marital relationships to substance abuse, from cheating on a
diet to lying to our spouses, we know that our actions are wrong and
yet we are still driven to destruction. It
is amazing how our mind works. It is our will that plants thoughts in
our lives much like planting seeds in the garden. We nourish the
proverbial seed with many ideas and beliefs. We spawn a personal
reality that can either be successful or devastating. We hold the
key. We create our own universe. It is important to be aware of our
internal strength and all of our capabilities. Let us
agree not to walk on that beaten path that leads to poverty
mentality. We can choose to change anything that fails to enhance our
existence. We can overcome anything.
Let
us avoid the cycle of hell and learn to walk like angels. We will
take the high road and steer ourselves away from poor decisions.
Self-control
and harmony is one choice away to freedom. Make the right choice!
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